wTf siA... wHy mUst EveRybOdy tOk aBOuT hIm? aNd thEy aLL jOlly wELL kNoWs ThaT im TrYin rEaL fArKin hArd TimE tO gEt Him OUt Of mY MinD!! wHy?! sO whAt hE's nEw Gf iS sMaLL-bUilT? sO? i knOw im FaT... bUt im hAppY wIf thE wAy i Am nOw. wHy iS thIs fArKin wOrLd sO UnFaIr tO mE? why? i rEaLLy wAnnA knOw wHy... im SiCk Of hEaRinG ThIngS aBOuT hIm & hIS nEw Gf... reAlly... im tirEd... real Damn TirEd.

yOu knOw blOggY, sOmEtimEs i rEaLLy feeL LikE endIng mY LiFe hErE. im TirEd Of ThEsE & tHaT... mY LifE nOw wAsNt thE OnE i wAntEd in mY chIldhOOd dreAmS... this wAsnt whAt i wAntEd... i knOw i mAkE thE wrOnG mOvE nOw... itS tOO laTe tO rEgrEt. whAt tO dO? i knOw i sHldnT thInk in the nEgAtivE wAy bUt... i jUz cOuLdnT fOrgiVe mYsElf. bY gIvIn mYsElf pAinS i dEn wiLL rEm thE miStaKeS i hAf dOnE in thE past. thOsE paIns aRe unbEaRaBle... tOO mUch fOr mE.

its aLreAdy bEen 2mths+... i haf tAkEn 80% oF hIm OuT Of mY minD... bUt ppL sEems tO likE tO tOk aBt him tO mE... i dun unDerstand wHy siA... im nOt blAmIng Or sCOlDing thEm, bUt bLoGGy im TirEd Of thEsE... dO u knOw hOw pAinfUl mY hEaRt iS ritE nOw? u wiLL nV unDerStand Or FeeL iT... teArS aRe tRyIn tO rOll OuT Of my eyEs bUt im TryIn nOt tO... coz i knOw cRyin is uSeLeSs. im usEleSs... bEsIdEs cRy i duNnO what i reALLy cAn dO...

my fUtUrE nOw sEemS sO dArk... my heArt is sO pAinfUl... its bLeeding prOfuSeLy aGaInz... wOunDs dOeSnt sEem tO hEaL aT aLL... in fACt gEttin deEpeR & dEepEr... i guEsS agAin imma gOin tO shi miAn agAin... 1 mOrE sleePLeSs nItE fOr mE... i wAnnA knOw tHe reAsOnS tO my Qn... whO cAn teLL mE? :'(

this wOrLd... wAnnA find sOmEOnE whO reALLy lOvEs yOu sEemS tO bE imPOsSibLe... all i wAnt is sOmeOne whO reALLy cArEs whO reALLy lOvEs mE... iS thAt LittLe wiSh Of mInE sO diFFicUlT tO fulfil god? u aRe BiAsEd... & i hAte yOu!!!

wO zHen dE haO Lei haO Lei... wO kuAi yaO cHeng bU xiA qU Le... dAo Di zHe sHi jIe zhEn De yOu zhen aI mA??? wO kAn sHi mEi yOu...

zHEn De haO xiAng qU sI... :'(

oh bTw bLoggY dun wOrrY i wOnT tRy tO sUiciDe fOr hIm aGaIn dUn wOrrY *PrOmiSe* =(