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Saturday, September 25, 2004

Why do ppl change?

Ppl change for better or for worse. Some change becoz they haf decided to over a new leaf... (did i use the rite phrase? well whatever)... Some change becoz of the environment they're in... Some change becoz of the ppl they know/met/love/hate/blahx... There are all sorts of reasons why ppl change. The important point is they changed to a better person or a incurable one?

Well as for me... I did change alot for the past 19 yrs... From a baby... so innocent, kawaii, chubby, adorable, lovable, beautiful, clever... (opps i praised myself too much i guess lols.)... to a young, sweet, soft-spoken, kind, er... i praised myself again hahax... & now? im a mature, loveless, weird, over-sensitive, ill-tempered, fat, ugly, short, complicated young adult... I guess i have changed from perfect to good, good to bad, bad to worse, & now... worse to hopeless... lols...

But why i changed so much? Hmz... It would be damn frigging long story which i can type for months if i really wanna say... haha... But i guess why i changed so much within these years is becoz of 'people'... Especially after i started dating like normal girls did... I changed. Learning lessons from my mistakes. Relationships really make one grow up... Ppl will tend to think now(if they didnt know how last time =/)... So do i... I even think more den others... I alwayz think of the consequences, what others will think/feel, what i shld haf done, what i shldnt haf done... I often put myself in others' shoes... Thinking & caring about others, eventually making myself sad, worried... I'm not trying to say imma good person, who cares about others more den myself. But i just simply cant stop myself from doing so... I JUST think too much -.-"

Hmzz back to the topic... Why do ppl change? Sometimes... you'll feel someone u THOUGHT that you know well, seems to change to another person... probably you didnt know that... actually the person did not change at all, its just that you THOUGHT that you know THAT person well, thats why you got the feeling he haf changed. That person actually is just showing his true self/ true colors... or back to his real-self. Does this make sense to you? Think about it. Or maybe you SHOULD think in this way... So you wont feel so sad... (well im actually telling this to myself. lols.)

Sighx... As long as that person know why he/she haf changed... & know what is wrong what is right... & what's the consesquences... blahblahblahx... Den everything will be alright... Why do we haf to care so much? Coz humans are all K-POs hahaha...

I guess i'll stop here, bloggy. Anyone haf any comments on whatever i wrote here, please feel free to do so. You can post ur comments @ my taggy or chatterbox. Take care bloggy, lub ya. :D

I cried. Because of U`

1:15 AM.