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Friday, October 08, 2004

bloggy... im really fucking sad fucking sad(shld i say sad or disappointed?)... early in the morning i got a frigging bad news... "HE" really haf a new gf now. SIGHx. wtf lor. last 2 weeks i already sensed his changes, & already pretend to test words out from his mouth & he said no, but his facial expressions betrayed him. okay fine. since he said no, i trusted him. SO, last week or days ago i went in Friendster(this fucking FS shld be banned!! 4ever making me sad everytime i go in.) & i went to "peep" @ his account, he set to "In a Relationship". I text-msged him on the mobile sayin "kns lor got gf liaoz nv even tell me." his reply was "nope, dun haf." obviously he's lieing.

Every person change becoz theres some reason for sure. & I saw his changes. & he told me NO. wtf. Den today, my sis go test him asking him "gd lor u got gf liaoz dun want meimei liaoz lor"... He reply her, "frds ARE impt BUT GF MORE IMPT." there there bloggy. he FINALLY ADMITS he HAF a NEW GF NOW. WTF?! Why dun he tell me? why cant he tell me? why? my sis say becoz he juz dun wanna lemme know. Afraid i gone crazy? nahx. who the fuck he think he is? I was so dumb that i was killing my own brain cells thinking what present to buy for his bdae next month. Now? i guess i dun haf to kill any precious cells of mine. I not buying him anything now. NOT EVEN A SINGLE CHOCOLATE. cb.

dunno why the fuck in so unlucky in love life. Do u know why im so sad/disappointed bloggy? coz' he's the first guy i like 1st... er... last time are those cbks who say like me i den slowly like them... lmaox!! but hes differ... i fall for him @ the 1st sight. he's only 1. thats why. sighx. whatever la. say so much oso no use. the fact is he DOESN'T LIKE ME(AT ALL!!). & He HAF A NEW GF NOW.

last time he still tell me sadly, i dun wanna get into any relationships anymore. i dun wanna get hurt again. crapS. All fucking LIES. I hate LIARS. & he told me he love his ex so much. wtf. & now he got new gf. see bloggy... guys really cant be trusted. am i rite? sigh. freaking foul mood @ the rite time. lucky i already sensed something real bad is coming & already haf my depressions the last 2 days hahax. but sth here i dun understand is. WHY THE FUCK I ALWAYZ SENSE THESE LOVE-LOVE THINGY SO ACCURATELY? But when its related to myself it doesnt seems so accurate? why? weird. does that mean that im gonna be alone be old-maiden for the rest of my life?

Theres so many human beings ard in this cruel world, but there isnt the rite 1 or someone who love me. sighx. dun ever tell me "nahx lubby/met you'll find someone better & loves u in the future." yaya, whatever la. im sick of hearing this. im really tired & sick of waiting. & i've stop searching for my prince charming after i haf break-up wif my ex. coz theres is no prince charming for me. i knew it. i simply juz knew it. coz this world is unfair. esp to me. so. wtf am i still sad after tokin/typin so much rubbish here? argh. sigh i thinkz u guys all think im siao liaoz tokin 2 myself here. but what to do? if i dun say out things on my mind now, i, for sure will be really crazy in the very next second. so juz lemme vent my angers & unhappiness out. (btw this is MY bloggy, so why am i explaining so much huh? siaoz!!)

okay lastly i wanna say is. i wont trust him anymore. & im not goin to contact him no more. (coz i dunno how 2 face him already.) sighx. i might blog again tonite, see my mood ba. & dun worry i wont cry for him. he dun deserve that kind of special "treatment" yet. lols. bloggy~~~~~ bloggy~~~~~~ bloggy~~~~~ sigh~~~~~~~ 伤心欲绝

PS: got comments juz say ba. scold me oso can. if u wanna slap me juz tell me. i'll let u slap. lols.

I cried. Because of U`

7:37 AM.