I`m depress, sick & being in a state of blur for a pretty long time already. I`ve been crying pretty much recently too. Most probably because I`m over-stressed up. Done alot of thinking too. Thinking about life, friends, friendship, love, money, health, etc.

I wonder what is the real defination of a real friend? True friends/Friends aren't them who will give you a helping hand when you need help even though you hardly know him for a long time? Sometimes I think about the friends I say or rather claimed to be my friends. Are they really my friends like I assume they are? Do they really take me as friend? I mean a real friend? Or am I just happened to be someone they know at a place somewhere out there at a time coincidentally? Or am I just his/her hi-bye friend who doesn't deserved to be taken seriously? So in the end, what`s friend? what`s friendship? what do you mean by real friend, true friend? I can have many friends, but who will be the one really be there when you are in trouble? Who? You? I doubt so. Am trying hard to get out of my "anti-social" status but I think I should just drop out that silly idea. Being anti-social is just great! You won't waste any unnecessary tears or hair on them!

Crying is such a silly thing to do! I shall ban myself like I used to do, from crying again! Maybe except crying for my silly sons, other than that, I shall no longer cry. No more crybaby. I have to learn to grow up and see the true colors of the people around me, this world, everything!

Honestly speaking, I think sooner or later, Singapore will be ranked the first for having many unreasonable, selfish, ill-mannered, arrogant citizens! Singaporeans, if they still don't change their way of thinkings, one day when they go abroad, the first to get whacked definitely will be Singaporeans! Being a Singaporean myself is such a disgrace! I shall migrate to some other foreign countries and never come back anymore.

I think I shall end this i-dunno-what-i-am-blogging blog here. This world is unfair. Die everyone! Satan rules. Black magic rules. Devilism rules. Demonism rules. Ha.