Went for HERMES training in office early morning from 10am to 5pm. Went to Novena for lunch with some colleagues at noon time. Order a plate of Thai style pineapple rice, didn't finish it. Not much appetite as usual. Sigh.

Honestly, during the almost 7 hours training, most of the time I'm either staring at blanks or the monitor; or I'm thinking of him. :'( I couldn't concentrate on the training. Of course, I didn't get to catch up with the others in some of the part of the course. Sigh. But I also can't be bothered liaoz la. Wasn't in mood at all. My brains and my heart had long ago flew to him.. :'(

When on my way home, I walked to the seat that we always meet up every weekend. It hurts me deeply when I recall the way he walk, the way he looks, walking towards me from the other side of the station to our "usual place".

I was "dreaming" away in the train, till suddenly I saw someone with similar hair style as him. I keep staring at that guy. He reminded me so much about him. Memories of him and me on the train journey.

Sigh. I really miss him badly. :'( Everywhere I go, every hour, every minute, every second. How many times I feel like calling him up just to listen to his voice. I will be very happy too even if I can only hear him say "hello?".

I really miss him so much. Staring at his photos break my heart even more. Sigh.. :"(








Without HIM:

HIM: I'm as well as fish, without water; unable to survive.
HIM: I'm as well as tree, without roots; unable to grow and live.
HIM: I'm as well as a chopstick, without the other; never able to be whole again.
HIM: I'm as well as a colour-blind person, unable to see colours; my world is all in black and white.
HIM: I'm as well as a clock, without ticker; my time and world are freezed forever.
HIM: I'm as well as moon, without sun; I'm unable to shine anymore, because you are my blazing sun.
HIM: I'm as well as 99, without 1; I'm incomplete, because the 1 is you.
HIM: I'm as well as blind person, unable to see; because in my eyes, I can only see you.
HIM: I'm as well as an instrument, unable to play out anymore notes; because you are the melody of my life.
HIM: I'm as well as deaf, unable to hear; because you are my ears.
HIM: I'm as well as a mute, unable to speak; because you are my vocal cords.
HIM: I'm as well as dead, without oxygen to breathe; because oxygen is you.