Sigh. With no place to go & don't know where I should go or can go to, I went straight home right after work yesterday afternoon.

At home. My mind was in a blank. Not knowing what should I do next. Sigh.

I wasn't feeling very well. Got a bad headache, body's aching and silly stomach's growling. I didn't eat much. No appetite at all. Frustrated with myself and with my gastric. I then, went to lie on my bed (should be mattress) with my usual tare-panda pose, thinking of taking a nap so I won't feel hungry again.

No idea where its from, I smell something familiar. An odor of sadness that is strong enough to stimulate the water in my body to flow out of my eyes as tears. I could smell the scent, the fragrance of his hair, him, on one of my pillows cover.

I buried my whole face into that pillow. In my upsurged emotion, a gush of tears flow out from my still-swollen eyes, wetting my pillow. Slowly I walked into my dreams. Dream that only have HE and ME. Noone else.

I don't know how long I've been in the dreams.. I opened my eyes. I couldn't see anything except pitch black of emptiness. Darkness is everywhere around me. I'm glad there's his scent to keep me accompanied. Sigh.














I miss him terribly. :'(